9 Days and Counting!

I can't believe that I am only 9 days away from saying "Adios Tejas", and "Hello New York, New York" I am thrilled beyond belief and yet there is still so much more I need to do before I can hop on that jet plane and get the heck out of Dodge! I am in desperate help as far as packing goes. I know that I need to get rid of most of my clothes, and believe me, I've done some major purging in the last few weeks, but it is still not enough! (Thank you Lord for blessing me with more than enough.) I'm trying to be brutal, but its not good enough. Although, I have never had this much space in my closet!!!

Happy is what happens when all your dreams come true.... Well, isn't it?

I can not believe I am only 85 days away from leaving on a one way trip to the Big Apple. I am excited beyond measure, really... sorta. I can't help but think of the line from the song "Thank Goodness" from WICKED that says,
"Happy is what happens when all your dreams come true... Well, isn't it?"
I have never really stopped to think about that until now. More than one of my many dreams is gonna be crossed of my "Lifetime Achievement List" this summer alone, and more of them are bound to follow with the steps I will be taking in the next few years. So, why am I not as thrilled as I feel I should be?

As I think back over the last year, or even just past few months I can't seem to ignore the deep heaviness in my chest that overwhelms me at times. I have burned more bridges than I care to count and I have made more tough decisions than I have ever had to in my life so far. I mean, I graduated with my undergrad, got accepted to grad school, I'm moving to NY, I can totally see that I must be doing something right! The decisions I've made and forks in the road I've taken must have been for the better, but I can't help but feel a little sad.

I guess that's normal.

One Stone at a Time

So, there are so many new and wonderful things going on right now I can't even begin to say how happy I am! First off, I just got my scholarship/financial aid letter from NYU. So WOOO for $$$$$$$$$$$$$. I was getting really worried not knowing how much school was going to cost or how I was going to pay for it! But, now that I know I got a scholarship and some extra money for rent I feel much better. I can't believe how things are just falling into place. It feels like this road is being built one stone at a time, but eventually the whole thing will get finished.

My undergrad career is in it's final count down. I am only about 33 days away from graduation. It is most defiantly going to be a race to the finish. I am not doing to hot in my two science classes, so I am really working to pull a "D" in both of those classes to get the heck out of Corpus! ....one stone at a time. That's what I keep telling myself. Rome wasn't built in a day. And semesters aren't won and lost in the last month....OH, Wait... YES THEY ARE! Augh =0 *just breathe* Ok, One stone at a time. I can do this.
*NYU NYU NYU NYU* Alright, I'm better now. =D

Spring Time

I am so glad that Spring time is here! This semester has just flown by! I can't believe that it is almost over! Just to update the "Official Cassi Count Down", there are only 41 days till my birthday and 50 days till graduation!!! Life is just going so FAST! I am blown away right now.

I can't believe that in 4 months I will be moving to New York and starting Grad school. I applied for a job to teach voice lessons as an adjunct teacher at NYU. I really hope I get that job! That would just be amazing to be able to put a teaching job at a university on my resume my first year out of undergrad! I realize that it is only an adjunct position, but it's still a job....and at NYU!!!! =D I feel like there are so many little details I have yet to iron out, but I know that everything will come together, in God's perfect time. I keep telling myself that I have to just keep doing what I know I need to do; stay focused on my last month of school, pass my science classes (eek) and everything will eventually pan out.

"Let us hold tightly without wavering to the hope we affirm, for God can be trusted to keep his promise."

Hebrews 10:23

How do I remember it if I can't even say it?

...and this helps me...how???

What the heck! I feel like the more college classes I take, the less I know. Maybe all these classes are slowly draining my brain of knowledge. There has got to be a limit to the amount of useless crap my brain can take! Not that all college is useless crap, don't get me wrong, but for a Music Performance Major, I really don't see where learning about microscopic bugs that live in soil, and fossils are going to come in handy. This year is just dragging on! I want nothing more than to just be done with this stuff and move on. I have no problem studying for my music classes, I like those. Science on the other hand has never been a strong point of mine.

This is keeping fingers crossed...

"This is wanting something, this praying for it, This is holding breath and keeping fingers crossed. This is counting blessings, this is wondering when..."

I've never associated more with those lyrics from The Light in the Piazza as I do now! I am so excited to be moving to New York and starting school at NYU next semester, but at the same time there are still so many things I don't know. So many things that have me holding my breath! I have wanted nothing more than to live in New York since I was 14. (ok so I wanted nothing more than to have a Camaro for my first car AND to live in New York but 1 down so far lol) Now I'm within 5 months of seeing that come to pass, NOW WHAT?!? I know it will all work out. I'm just the type of person that wants to plan every tiny detail from the get go, and this is out of my hands for now.
...but only for now...

OMGoodness! Well, my little head is still spinning from all of the excitement I've seen in the past few days. My Senior Recital was AH-Mazing! I am really proud of all the work I put into it and the out come was beyond anything I could have imagined. I am so grateful especially to my mom, dad, and sister for all their help and support! I couldn't have done it without them!

My recital was made even better by a wonderful announcement that couldn't have come at a better time! A few weeks ago I went to New York to audition for New York University's Vocal Performance Grad School Program. I felt really good about how I did at the audition, but I was unsure of how long it would take to hear back from them about weather I got accepted or not. Well, while I was getting dressed for my recital, I stopped to check my email, and I noticed an email from the head of the vocal department at NYU. My heart dropped! Then I saw the first line of the email in the preview section, "Congratulations..." AUGHH! I got excepted to NYU!!! I was so excited I cried! The fact that it came hours before my senior recital was the best part of all! In God's perfect timing.... Well that for sure was!

Senior Recital Eve

I'm up late finishing up a environmental science lab report about the effect of caffeine on water fleas.... yeah, I know. It's about as interesting as it sounds, so here I am setting up a blog instead. Welcome to the 21st century Cassi!!! This is the eve of my Senior Recital at TAMUCC. I have been looking forward to this since my freshman year. A senior recital is like the final project beforre graduation for a music major. It's kind of a big deal. My theme for my recital tomorrow is one of my favorite bible verses; "I will sing to the Lord because he has blessed me so richly." -Psalm 13:6 That is the reason I sing. My God has blessed me beyond words, and the only way I know how to give thanks is to sing praise in any genre. Be it Opera, Broadway, or Jazz I sing, because He has blessed me SO richly.